daniela

last night i started feeling the blues and a bit overwhelmed, I think and there is a high possiblity it could be PMS but i was craving chocolate or anything bad for that matter. I tried to talk myself out of it and minutes later caved in. I did’nt feel quite as bad because it could have gone alot worse. I just hate that I feel that “all or nothing” is how weight loss/healthy lifestyle should be. For the most part in the past those pieces of chocolate would have sent me over the edge to completly getting me off track. I know very well this is a jounery a lifelong one at that. But my mind and everything else tells me “failure” “worthless” “cheater”! To the contrary I tell myself “Im human” and “Im not dieting” “Im living and breathing” and “paving a way to a better me”. Why does my mind have to dictate how I feel, I say that because today im still down and out and very much fighting through it. I just hate disliking myself, I want to feel good about myself and not just because one day I maybe a size smaller but because I truly like myself. Anyway I know this is more then a rant. Believe me when I say I still jumped on the treadmill today and jogged 34 minutes and still ate very much healthy and I did not indulge and fall back on pizza like I wanted to just because I’m depressed today. Im learning my best to sort through these feelings, if any of you have anything that might have helped you please share. Okay, Im done.

~Daniela

I have been busy with last minute details for my daughter’s 5th birthday. I am logging in quick to check a blog or two and still eating healthy and hitting the gym early. I blogged before about my mouth having a weird taste and it is gone now. I am still watching almost every morsel of what I eat and why. It might sound tedious and time consuming but for now it works. I keep reminding myself why this is so important -to put me first! It is so hard when I juggle 3 kids a husband etc. But I refuse to compromise my health and feeling good when I did it for so long. If I am not truly happy then I cannot make anyone else happy. For now I am chugging along and really thinking about me and my potential. I want to thank you buddies for making it easier, this site is awesome:)))) Your boosters are great and I appreciate them. I am anticipating slowing down a bit with the busy-ness after this last party at least until the holidays really role around.  So again lots of love to you all out there that are trying again like me or continuing your healthy journey. I heard the other day it is not a destination to better health but a journey….good stuff!  Before I forget I weigh myslelf friday again and my husband hid the scale because I told him I had issues with weighing myself every minute it seems…lol. But it is better I weigh every week….cant wait! Have a great week everyone!!!

Weighed in today….I am excited! I know these results are just the start and I promise I have only been doing 1500 calories and exercising 6 days a week so i know typical results are losing 2-3 pounds a week. I am not eating after 6pm which I think I am changing to 7pm because I noticed that my mouth has this really weird taste at times… could be toxins not sure. I cant stand it though it started when I started cutting back on calories and fried foods etc. Hope it goes away soon my body feels in fasting mode at times even though I think I am eating sensibly. Any tips for that? Is this normal? I dont remember ever feeling this way when I cut down on calories before but i almost thought maybe I should up the calories a little. Well again I wish everyone the best as we all continue in our healthy lifestyles:)

Weigh in day is this friday. I am not expecting huge results but anything is better then what I was. I have been hitting the gym every day and started my running again and the main thing is PACE PACE PACE. I have been feeling good with my new eating changes but this first week has been a long one.  Someone PLEASE tell me it goes by quicker as time goes on…lol. I have been afraid of falling off the wagon sort of speak even though I keep telling myself this is a lifestyle change. I am not craving fast food as that was my “drug of choice” before. But I will admit cooking for my entire family every night has been tough since the quick way of doing meals seemed way easier but ofcourse unhealthy at times. I am working on new recipes to cut time in half since I do have three kids under 4 to tend to:) Also I am happy that THE BIGGEST LOSER season 8 just started last night it is such a huge motivator!!! Well this is it for now I commend all of you awesome buddyslimers who have lost weight, maintained or are on your way to better health.  Have a Blessed rest of the week:)